why is it that it is so easy to point to someone at the mall and say to your friend “i want that”…but you never wanna do what it takes to really pursue it? doesn’t make you chicken, doesn’t make you a loser…most of us are guilty of that. i used to be the one who sat back and waited to be liked. i was always approached or had things brought to my attention. i used to wonder how they were so cool with being “aggressive”. when you’re in high school it’s much different than in the “real world”. high school dating is so easy. it’s very similar to elementary school dating, it’s still okay to pass a note or get a friend to ask for you. okay maybe not “very”…maybe kinda. high school is where most of our peers start[ed] having sex. that’s basically the only difference. OH! and the fact that you throw/kick the L word around like a hacky sack. but anyway, past experiences had me in a comfort zone with this “sit back and wait” method of dating. right now i can’t do that. and it scares me. you ever heard of the “R” word? “rejection”? who doesn’t fear that from time to time? whatever relationship i encounter next will be my first legit relationship as an adult. i specify that because it’s important and kind of funny to me. but until that happens…i am single and hating it. but i am willing to take all the time in the world to be with someone worth it. worth the wait. i don’t want to break my single streak with someone who really wasn’t worth it. that would make me feel super crappy.
so amazing. she is so amazing.
kinda scares me how she got my mind racing.
thoughts of her and me keep me thinking positive.
her in my life got me ready to change the way i live.
that extra push to do better.
that force that makes me mature.
the reason these groupies text me referring to me as
i find that she’s worth what i’ve got to give.
there’s something about her, i just don’t know what it is.